I want to start a makeup portfolio - so I can eventually show clients etc. or employers
but how would I go about this?? Luckily I have a decent enough camera so I can take good quality photos anyway, but should I do different people of various ages makeup?
My makeup kit is gradually growing, I just need some MAC F&B in a few shades and maybe some MAC Studio finish concealer in a few shades (some NC & NW) and some disposable mascara wands etc. for hygiene reasons and maybe some lip palettes with more nude shades (maybe MAC creme cup or something aswell) and a few more things like extra blushes/contours/bronzers/eyeliners etc. OH and MAC’s vanilla pigment cause that is the most beautiful thing ever!
buttttttttt yeah I would really like to do some freelance work, but later on in 2014 when I finish this HND and do like bridal/special occasion makeup to start off with whilst maybe working on a makeup counter if I can
I had a session with my tutor at Uni and the counsellor today and we eventually came up with a solution as to how i’m going to continue on with the course. Basically I can do it all from home, I just have to come in once a month for tutorials with my tutor to show her my work and hand in any assignments. As it’s been put as a concession I don’t have to hand in my work dead on time either (i’ll just hand it in on the nearest Wednesday each month) which prevents any extra stress!
As for work, i’ve explained everything to my manager as well and she says I’d have to resign to get extended time off, but she says the door is always open if I want to go back and work there again.
Overall everyones being really supportive which is really helpful and gives me huge relief!
Next week I should be going back home to Brighton for a month-ish cause I felt a lot better being closer to my family. While i’m there I can do all my uni work but also relax and have time to myself and see my dad and enjoy christmas!! The one sad thing is that i’ll miss Elliott’s 21st birthday though :’(
Basically i’ve just got back to Kent after being at home in Brighton for 8 days, and this morning I had work but I ended up just breaking down crying (not sure if this is due to anxiety). So I went to work and had a chat with the chef and explained about my dads cancer and she understood etc. and she sent me home. I’m not sure if I was happier at home and here I feel negative due to my anxiety/panic attacks which is causing me to feel really down, or whatever. Elliott says I can go home for a month or something and maybe that will help cause i’ll be closer to my dad and surrounded by family, but then what the hell do I do about work and university and CBT.
I really don’t know what to do, but I have a CBT appointment on Monday so that may help? and then I’m seeing my uni tutor and counsellor on Wednesday to discuss my course so maybe it will get better from then onwards. And maybe this Citalopram will kick in sometime soon.
congrats on your anxiety-free day! i hope things are still generally looking up for you :) Choosing to stick out the rest of the year of your degree is a great decision, if a hard one, so well done for that. I did the same thing and now a few years later, I'm actually starting a completely diff. degree and have never been happier. This isn't to say you should do the same. Just, when you get a tough day, I want you to know that it will get better x
aww thanks a lot! :) yeah I think i’m gradually getting better, unfortunately Citalopram is one of the main factors that is helping - but I do start CBT next week so I who knows!
I’m glad you’re doing okay :) I am going to at least stick with this year and get an HND out of it and decided in May whether I want to do the final year or not :)
Today I went through the whole day without feeling anxious for the first time in about a month! (I have had other days but those days I’ve been home all day)
My mum and nan came and picked me up from kent as I’m back in Brighton for a week, and we went to bluewater for lunch and I felt okay all day, even in the long car journey. There were moments where I had worried thoughts but this didn’t lead to anxious feelings so yay.
I feel this is an achievement and it can only get better from here onwards!